Friday, December 29, 2006

Truth.

Truth. It's really a matter of realizing that life never turns out remotely like we've planned. It's a matter of noticing that your life is unexpected at its heart. It's about loving who you are and not apologising for that. Not now, not ever. It's about realising that your body is yours. It is not foreign to you. It is not an alien. It is part of you. It is integral. It sustains your life. Love your defects in spite of a world that would tell you not to. Change what needs to be changed. Leave the rest alone. You are not a magazine. You never will be.
Do not let person tell you that there is something you cannot do. It is only you that can say that. In the end, you are the only one who can be blamed for your decisions. Only you.
Learn to accept the endings in your life and appreciate them for what they are. You will learn from this, you will. Every death is a moment in your life that is forever captured in a snapshot in your mind. It is a milestone and cherish it with all your soul. Every lost friendship will teach you something about your own personality. Every broken heart will tell you something about how you feel regarding the personality of others around you.
Write, sing, dance, scream, run, smile cry. Feel.
Love. Love with what you can, but always keep a part of yourself.
There is no glory in going it alone. Accept help if you need it.
Treasure your friends. There will come a time when you need them. You will need them and it is up to you to decide whether or not you wish to be greeted, in your darkest hour, with a smiling face or a silent shoulder.
Indulge your senses.
Love each season.
Fall in love with a colour.
Never, never, never listen when someone tells you to grow up. This is jealousy. Not all can look at a blank white wall and see a field of rainbows. Cherish this.
Never let another person define love for you. Never.
You are no one's property. You do not ever need to be "allowed" to do something.
Stay innocent. Allow yourself to learn from life and grow wise, but do not lose your sense of wonder. Today is a new day. Today is not yesterday. Today will not come again.
Learn to love the truth. This is about truth. Truth. It's simply a matter of realising that nothing turns out as planned and continuing on and smiling because of this.
Except the unexpected, direct the misdirected, always love. Always.

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A new start,
-Kalinka.

1 comment:

The whisper in your ear said...

I love love. I sound like a loser, But I do. I've learned to love myself and thoes around me. Kalinka this was very good! You're and intellegent girl. Your not smart, your not wise your INTELLEGANT. Ther is a diifernce. To be smart, You only have your academics. To be wise you have street smarts and random facts of life that seem to speak 20 years ahead of your time. To be intellegent you have both. And kalinka you have both!


Keep writing,
Jesse